My So Called Life

I sat down one Saturday night and reflected on the past few months and realized that the end of the school year is quickly approaching. Then I realized the other deadlines creeping up on me. Needless to say, I felt helpless to the world passing me by so quickly. I just want things to slow down for a while. Some time for me to gather my thoughts. But of course we all now the world doesn’t just stop for anyone. Especially the forgetful kind of people with bad time management who signed up for all this repsonsibility.

This year has flown by, and that’s not a good thing. I feel like I haven’t had the chance to enjoy my last year of high school. I know I’m a lot more involved with things this year, and that’s great, but it’s like I haven’t had the chance to enjoy all of my hard work. Literally every single day of the week is filled with multiple responsibilities.  So as I sat in my chair that Saturday night, I asked myself: “What did you do last Wednesday?” and couldn’t remember. Why? Because I’ve been so caught up with everything in my life. The Student Council, play rehearsals, production, homework, ISUs, Europe Trip, friends, Prom Committee, and not to mention the other things going on in my life outside of school.

With so much on my mind, I’ve begun to forget a lot of things. I’m feeling really helpless right now, and it sucks. I think I’ve bitten off more than I can chew. I hope I can surface unscathed with my sanity still intact. Because I certainly don't feel intouch with my life right now. I don’t want high school to be over just yet!

Someone throw me a life preserver made of hope, please. Because this is just scratching the surface.

Current Location: My Living Room
Current Mood: Overwhelmed
Current Music: Justin Timberlake - Losing My Way

So it came time to submit my grad quote, and I drew a blank. Not to mention I totally forgot about it. I've been trying to find the perfect quote since Summer. I did the whole Google search thing and even listened to some songs for lyrics. No luck. So I decided to create my own inspirational schpeel. Which, I thought I was incapable of by the way haha. Usually I just write a general 'thank you' to the school and stuff, but I was feeling a little more obligated to write an inspirational piece this time lol. It was hard mind you, cause I was on a roll but had to cut it short in order to keep it within the 220 character limit (including punctuation and spaces). So after much editing........

"Live your life according to your own expectations, and pursue the dreams you have envisioned. Because you are the one in control, never forget that. Remember to love and laugh a lot along the way too. –Me

Thanks class of 09!"

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So I found the whole "101 Things In 1001 Days" to be really inspiring. But I'm no good with completing goals under a certain amount of time. Sooo instead I made a list of 100 things I would like to do in life. That should give me enough time to accomplish most if not all of them, right? I sure hope so.

( And the list goes on... )

Current Location: My Living Room
Current Mood: determined

Ok so I found this article and couldn't stop shaking my head while reading it.

Honestly, was I the only person who knew VitaminWater was bad for you before this whole thing blew up?

Apparently people are so outraged that they've been drinking sugar loaded beverages that Coke needs to be taken to court. And apparently everyone who is mad at Coke for being so "deceptive" is either illiterate or never bothered to learn how to read. Just because something is called "VitaminWater" doesn't automatically mean it's good for you. Although yes we do tend to associate the words "vitamin" and "water" with healthy things, it does not give you the excuse to not educate yourself about the product you are consuming. And it really isn't all that hard! Just look at what's on the label! Companies print their products' nutritional information and ingredients directly on its packaging for a reason-- for you to read. And maybe if you took the time to actually read the label you would have figured it out for yourself that VitaminWater is in fact, bad for you. And don't kid yourself by claiming you don't read the labels, because clearly you do. How else would you know that you enjoy drinking "Formula 50" rather than "Vital-t"? EXACTLY. So shut the hell up and quit your whining.

If you had just turned that delicious colourful bottle of VitaminWater a little bit more, you would have been able to find the Nutrition Facts. The government and Advisory Committee made it mandatory to print nutritional facts for a reason. And it's not Coke or anyone else's fault that you were foolish enough not to read the label. You are in control of what gets put into your body and educating yourself about what you ingest. No one else. So don't try and blame someone else for your mistake. This brings us to the annoying expression: "If someone told you to jump off of a bridge, would you do it?". NO (unless you're really stupid), because we as humans were given brains so that we aren't just dumb sacks of flesh that can be manipulated. So just because a drink is named "VitaminWater" and is marketed a certain way, it doesn't mean you have to believe it or buy into it. Educate yourself, become more media aware, start thinking critically.  It will help prevent things like this from happening again. And honestly, in this day and age, almost everyone has access to the internet (which has just about everything on it). So you have even less of an excuse not to inform yourself.

Here, how about I make this journal entry a little more educational:

When reading a product's label take note of its sugar, calorie, fat (trans and saturated) and cholesterol content per serving. This information (along with other great and important nutritional information) is conveniently located somewhere on your product's packaging. Another thing to pay attention to on the same part of the label is the list of ingredients. Even though most low fat or diet products are supposed to be "good" or "better" for you, you still should pay close attention to their labels. If sugar (fructose, sucrose), artificial colouring/flavouring or preservatives are listed as one of the first ingredients, you can already make the assumption that this product is not good for you. Take some fruit snacks for example. They have "REAL FRUIT" printed really big across the packaging, but if you took the time to read the ingredients you would see that there is more sugar than fruit in some "REAL FRUIT" products. Ingredients are usually listed in order by how much is in the product. Meaning if there were 19 grams of sugar, 0.5 grams of flavouring and 32 grams of gelatin in something-- the order they should/would be listed in on the packaging would appear as "Gelatin, Sugar, Flavouring". So be more aware now when buying prepackaged items off the shelves of your grocery store.

Oh and continuing on with that ridiculous article-- JAMES KOH of California, YOU ARE A DUMBASS! I'm sorry, but I just had to get that off my chest. If I, a seventeen year-old high school student, know that much about prepackaged food and its labels... you should be ashamed. When you say "When I bought VitaminWater, frankly I thought I was doing myself a favor health-wise," and "I was attracted by the prospect of getting extra vitamins. But I had no idea that I was actually getting almost a Coke's worth of sugar and calories. There's no way I would have spent money on that, had I known." it makes me wonder "What stopped you from finding this out for yourself?". Coke certainly didn't. So why on Earth are you (and however many other people) suing them? Something as simple as you turning over your damn bottle of VitaminWater and reading the information printed on the label would have saved a whole lot of people the trouble of bothering with this lawsuit. If Coke is lucky enough, their lawyers will do a better job than you. And that's quite probable since you couldn't figure out the nutritional info for yourself when it was right in front of your face. Obviously, I am on Coke's side. Because in all honesty Coke should not have to compensate people for being ignorant, especially because they probably will not be using it on audio-books trying to learn how to read.

All I have to say now is: "Aquafina Plus+ and Pepsi , you'd better watch your ass." 
 

 

Current Location: My Living Room

Hahaha yea, would you ever guess that my scholarly English teacher said that? Neither would I (actually yea I could cause he's such a rad teacher lol). What spurred this amazing and crazy lesson idea? William Shakespeare's Macbeth. Yea I know, right?!  According to my teacher "Macbeth is/was the original Emo kid" LOL. Last class he told us to all write what we thought could be considered an Emo song. Of course I missed last class and only came into today's class with only 20 minutes left in the lesson. I always miss the good stuff! *sadface* Let's just say that there were some interesting lyrics haha. Then we had some intense discussion about music and stuff. We talked about emos, scene kids, folk music, etc. Definately not what you'd expect from an academic university level English class learning about Shakespeare.

Which is why I really enjoy his class. I've always loved English, but this teacher is really amazing. He challenges us and actually teaches us new things. Not to mention the awesome discussions (which you know about now). I can't wait to see what kind of Emo music my teacher has lol. Honestly, how many students can tell their parents they listened to their teacher's "emo playlist" when their parents ask them what they learned in class? I guess that's why his class is so fun. He teaches in an unconventional way by using different things as tools (ex. using Eminem's '97 Bonnie and Clyde song and Tori Amos' cover as an example of defamiliarization). Oh and he insists that we call him by his first name and not by his last. In summary, he's just a chill teacher. And apparently that deserves its own LJ post lol (p.s. he uses LJ too!).

But seriously, can you believe we're actually having a lesson done on almost everything Emo??? I'm still trying to wrap my head around that haha.

Current Location: My Living Room

Since I haven't made an entry in a while I figured I'd give this a shot. Not to mention it seemed interesting haha. Mind you I don't have an expansive vocabulary. Here it goes!

A- anxious
B- blunt
C- cantonese
D- dorky
E- eclectic
F- food
G- generous
H- happy
I- insane
J- jummpy
K- kind
L- lazy
M- money
N- nice
O- organized (for the most part)
P- party 
Q- questionable
R- retarded
S- silly
T- tall
U- understated
V- vulnerable
W- wonderful
X- xanthus: means "yellow" or "having light-brown or yellowish skin. LOL I had to look that one up.
Y- young (for now)
Z- zealous (the only one I could think of on my own, and I'm not always 'zealous')

Most of the words refer to the same thing, but I tried to make them different. I just went with whatever popped into my mind first so they're probably not the best results haha.

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Because I just pulled out four of my wisdom teeth this morning =B lol. Four times the less wisdom for me now! Haha if you didn't get the lame joke part in the title of this entry. Anyways, it's not that bad. I went to bed at like 4 something AM and had a bunch of broken sleep. I wasn't allowed to eat food after 3AM cause of the whole "no-food-six-hours-prior-to-surgery" rule. So I gorged myself on whatever solid foods I could get my hands on after I got off work at 12 midnight. Haha yea, work booked me 5 nights in a row up til the day of my surgery. But that's cool cause now I have a whole bunch of time off. Anywhositss... first I ate a bunch of sexy chocolate chip cookies I baked a few nights ago (soo good!), then I ate some Miss Vickies/Lays chips, and on top of that, I had two belgian waffles with vanilla ice cream, chocolate sauce and cinnamon on top. And after a bit of digestion, I shared a pizza with my older sister and had a glass of orange juice :). 

I woke up at 7AM, took a shower and got dressed to go to the dental office for my appointment at 9AM. I went with my mother and older sister (cause I was gonna be sedated during the procedure) and transited over. After we arrived, we sat in the waiting room for quite a while. They gave me a pamphlet to read about all the side effects and stuff. After that, they put me in a dental screening room and I waited there for a while. Then a nurse came and gave me to another nurse and then we all went to the operating room. The second nurse was a petite asian woman, I don't know how much smaller then me she was though. If you're wondering why I'm mentioning that... you'll see later on.

So the asian lady hooked me up to a bunch of machines to keep track of my heart rate, blood pressure and oxygen levels. While doing that, she explained to me all the hoopla behind the procedure and stuff. Then she slipped a mask over my nose and pumped me full of laughing gas (that stuff stinks but seriously makes you feel giggly LOL). I wasn't sure if the gas was on or not, but I smelt something funny. So I just went with it and started taking some mildly deep breaths. With my drowsiness and the laughing gas, I was well on my way. The asian lady continued to talk to me and to be honest, I was soo gone, I couldn't really care. I was literally like "U_U hm?...yeah...ok...sure...". Then they stuck me with an IV and I think I bled a crap load cause I remember the lady babbling about my arm to the other nurse, who told her to keep swabbing it and stuff. After that, I must have conked out, cause I don't remember what happened next. 

So after whatever happened when I fell unconcious, I woke up to the nurse people and the dental surgeon (I think? I don't remember, it's kinda fuzzy) telling me I did good. Haha thanks for giving me credit for being knocked out. So when I regained conciousness, the petite asian lady tried to drag me into the recovery room. Now this is where that random fact before becomes useful -- so the nurse tried to support me, but in reality, I was just too huge for her lol. She actually said "Woah, she's really, really big!" and I remember chuckling. Wow, I must have looked like a drunk who just got out of an alleyway brawl lol. After I was brought into the recovery room, I met up with my mother and sister. They called me chipmunk face... or was it chipmunk cheeks? I dunno, can't remember lol. The nurses laid me down on this bed type thing and covered me with a blanket. Omg it was sooooo nice. I took like a 45 second nap XD. I kept drifting in and out of conciousness and they told us about the healing process and whatever, then basically kicked me out. Oh wait, before they did that, they stuck a bunch of gauze in my mouth. The people at front desk called us a taxi and we were on our way home. 

When we got home I cried cause the gauze was hella annoying, and the roof of my mouth/back of my throat was killing me. The bleeding holes in my gums didn't even bother me compared to that. Which is pretty retarded when you think of it lol. After I took out the gauze, I was still bleeding so I had to stick some fresh ones back in. Then i went to take a nap. But I didn't sleep long cause the gauze was driving me crazy. So I rolled out of bed and took the gauze out and rinsed my mouth with salt water. Everything after that is basically the same. I'm stuck eating mush for a while and I need to brace for the pain that I can expect in 2-3 days (according to the oral surgeon). I also need to take an antibiotic every 7 hours and if it hurts a lot, a Tylenol 3. I also got to keep my teeth, well, my top ones anyways. Cause they chopped the bottom ones up into bits to get them out more easily. I asked to keep them lol. 

Current Location: My Living Room
Current Mood: sore

A very detailed summary of my day is under the cut below.

Current Location: My Living Room

EMO. That's what I'm basically gonna turn into tonight/this morning... Cause my friends bailed on me last minute for the Soundtrack of Your Summer concert. And things are just really complicated right now. I have an extra ticket cause my one friend has to tend to some family business out of town. And my other friend, who I was supposed to go with dicthed me. And is going with some girl who hates my guts and literally wanted to stab me. And this is all my friend's fault cause she told her friend some bogus story that made her hate me. And now it's all come to screw me over in the end. I've had three people offer to buy my ticket. One being unresponsive. The second person and I ended up bonding through a really really long convo via Facebook. And the third person is coincidentally friends with some guy I met during summer school (last year). Both have really good stories. And now I'm picking and choosing. The second person says I should just give it to the third person. But my mom went all agro paranoid parent freakout on me and said I'm either going with my friend and the chick who wants to stab me, not go at all, or go with her. Now as you can see this leaves me in a very very very bad place. I'm willing to sell it to the third person, but I don't know if my mom would like that very much... considering they're a stranger. But I really don't want to go with my mom (for obvious reasons). And now that I have an offer for my ticket, I can't run it by my mother because she's SLEEPING. Why the hell do these little problems keep coming up to ruin my plans? Is it a sign I shouldn't go? NO. NEVER. I need to go to this concert. It's all I've been looking forward to this summer. And If I can't go, I'll be totally bummed. I can't even type right now cause I'm so damn busy trying to figure this out. So to be continued?? Hopefully when I come back to write some more, things will have worked out well.

Cross your fingers!!!

Current Location: My Living Room
Current Mood: stressed

I'm a big durr when it comes to HTML and LJ business, so things didn't post the way I would have liked them to why is embeding videos under a LJ cut so hard?. Regardless of that, I've still managed to post them. And don't worry, the videos posted aren't explicit or anything like that. After you've seen them, you'll understand the meaning behind the labels lol.

Anal Lurve <3
"WOAH!" (his reaction is so cute)
Shake Dat Ass, But Watch Yo Self! w/some hip thrustin' action on the side ;P

-edit-
I found another lawl worthy vid:
"Oww, that hit me in the wiener! That fuckin' hurt..."

Current Location: My Living Room
Current Mood: amused

Sooo since my last post, a bit has changed. I've managed to get a job (woo my first job!) working as a cashier at a drugstore. Andddd I will no longer be attending Wakestock 2008. Why? Cause I was gonna volunteer to attend for free, but got rejected lol. So there goes that plan. But I guess it's for the better since I've got a job now. BUT I'm still gonna be going to The Soundtrack of Your Summer Tour fersure cause I'm bomb like that (and got tix super early) lol. Something that totally bums me out though is that I'm stuck here listening to CSWS through my iTunes and not from the actual album!! Why? Cause living in Canada has it's downsides. One being that we suck at recieving awesome shipments of equally awesome albums (like wtf, seriously). Fearless told me that they'd be in by the following week, and yet here I am still freaking waiting for that album to be in my hands!!! Can you say epic fail HMV Canada? And I dunno wth is going on with Future Shop and Best Buy. Why is being Canadian sucking so recently? Actually, now that I think about it, maybe I'll check out Indigo/Chapters' website to see if they have it since they have The Maine's EP.  Brb. Ahh wtf, the site says the album will be released August 5th and that we should preorder it?!?! AND for $15?!?! Can I please shoot someone in the head???

Current Location: My Living Room
Current Mood: annoyed

Damn, it's nearly been a year (give or take a few months...) since I've last posted. Quite a bit has changed. My reason of joining LJ has abandoned their journal (where the hell have you gone???)... and I am no longer interested in Korean music. Ahhh don't hit me you super creepy legion of fangirls!!! Anyways, aside from that, I no longer frequent this thing. That is... until last night when I discovered a LJ Community dedicated to my newer loves: THE MAINE <3. I still probably won't go on LJ much, but at least I can join the community lol. I'll probably frequent their Myspace and Facebook thing more anyways. Sorry LJ! 

And... the dreaded end of the school year has officially arrived T__T. Meaning end of the year summatives are due and crappy exams start. Gahh!!! O well, I can't really complain... considering I only have 2 exams compared to other people with 7 lol. Either way, I still have my right to complain cause exams are universally hated by everyone, right? Next year should be schweet though. Year 4 Rep for the Student Council AND President of the Prom Committee with only 6 courses and two spares??? Hells yess!!! But before I get all excited for the Fall, let's talk about my Summer! Wooooo new Maine material coming out July 8th or 7th! PLUS I've got tix to see them play at the Kool Haus on August 13th. ANNNND I plan on attending Wakestock. Boooya baby, booooooyaaaaa.

Current Location: My Living Room
Current Mood: excited

So I have finally made a LJ account after fifty billion years. I don't know anyone who has an account on here. So I have no idea who's going to be reading this. So why did I make a LJ account? Well, I made one because a very amusing poster had recently made their LJ thingy friends only *cough* you know who you are *cough* and I wanted to be able to read their super awesome posts. So here I am now, messing around on LJ and posting my first entry. I doubt I'll be on much. We'll see. Enjoy my extremely blank LJ =]

Current Location: My Living Room
Current Music: Uh-Oh - 1TYM